I lose... I want to blog back !

I gave up !! I really gave up from keeping so many thing deep in my self. I don't know where I should voice out my little heart words. I thought I could gave up from witting blog and keep every moment by my self and being a very secretive person. Not to share all my happy moments and definitely not my sad moments with everyone out there. Many solution I had gone through to stop my self telling everyone and bare by my self ( I admit I fail and tell only some of my friends what I was so up sad and what I had went through there few months).

A lot of unwanted things happen and is not under my control. I go through very happy moment in my life and at the same time the most sad and unwanted one I have to face recently. As I'm growing up, the more 'thing' I have to face and experience. Sigh, I feel I'm lost now !! Who's going to guide me in my coming life ? My stubbornness had make me lose everything.