Theme park ride

I never had a chance to blog anything lately due to my roller coaster time. I wouldn't know when I'll be free and when I woundn't be free.I reserve all my time for assignments(Group Assignment).Sorry if I FFK at the very last minute because it is not easy to have all the members together as some may busy with their personal life. As for me, I'll off for my part time job after class every Friday.The only day we have is Thursday.

This semester I was like riding on a Space Shot ride.Some time when I was alone, I feel my life is so horrible. I cry by my self ( believe it, Candy is a person who love to cry ), asking my self, why ...... ? I lost the balance in my life, I had make one side heavier and now I have to suffer when problem occur. I believe, this is because the incident on last October where he mention XXXXX XX those word to me and make me feel the very insecure position I was having now. Therefore,I'm working very hard and putting more effort to save it back as I could untill I never realised, I was in the very unbalance situation now. I wouldn't blame this on anyone but to my self. I'm born naturally with this.

I admit there is somehow affect a little on my studies. I use to have many inspiration during the early few semester but now I seem to be stuck some where. Inspiration come to me often when I have nothing to worried and walking through a happy days all time.I fail to give my self a happy day. I already know problem occur and I feel I was in to very the unsecure situation now. How would I have a peaceful and happy day ? I 'll rather stumble upon my self thinking if there is any thing that I can make everything stable back and not to mention that XXXX words again .I alway wish miracle will happen. He will once promised me everything and making my life like the begaining time , happy and cheerful.I wish he will bring the miracle to my life.

P/S: I don't know why am I bloggin about this, but I'm sure this is not what I wanted to post at first. By the time those words appear on my mind, here am I just type in....The above post did not mention anyone specific.....Please don't take it seious!