I wasn't with the wrong ONE ^^

Seriously, both of us been going lot of up's and down in this relation
It is not easy when I'm about to give up that time
It is not easy to over come that moment
Let it go , not
Hold it back , not
Felt so heavy in my heart
My brain was so empty
Just want my self to feel comfortable and free from thinking anything that time
Felt so tired , sad, down
Hrm ~ that was the past that no one excatly know what happen between us actually
but
Guess my dad saw I was crying that night
but he act nothing
Well... that was my dad..

But dear do prove to me
I wasn't with the wrong one
I felt there was a lot of improvement after that
I will talk anything that I like even I was just crapping some time if to be compare with last time..... ( I will be quiet a side )
I'll not stop my self from sms him when I felt I really need to , when I miss him
and

he spent most of his time with me

This is how the life I wanted after so long
and I hope this is what he wanted too after being so long with me =)
but there is more improvement that we can made
what I am having now is already very good and I hope it will remain like this forever

more improvement are welcome but not hoping by quarreling
^^

Really thanks to my dear for spending most of his time with me each day
some time I could see he was so tired after work but still spending his night with me ... I really appreciate it a lot. A lot.... more than a words can describe
But I hope spending his time with me wasn't just for me

to be happy ... but is what he wanted too
But I'm okay for few days if he never spend his time with me ... but not too long because some time I will lost my patient when I was freaking eMo and sAd and

need some one to be around me ...^^
especially
him

Thanks dear for everthing ....
Guess you know what I was appreciate for all the time
I'm appreciating the time we spend together , the up's and down we went through , everything you did for me and the day we going to have in the future.

Hrm~
not sure why I was blogging about my private stuff over here...
maybe I wanted him to know I was appreaciting everything in him more than he expected if he don't notice or realise it sometime ... ^^
I appreciate his present in my life more than a words that can desicribe
I love him more than the the number figure that can form
I really thanks to God for arranging him to walk into my life
^^

10th February 2008